When a GIRL says"I love you," she means it!! Bam-Bam

so...there is this guy. i have known him forever!! he is one of my best friends and i NEVER want that to change. but lately...as in the past few months...we have kinda talked about becoming more than just friends. its something i NEVER thought would even come up. i think about it alot...and i REALLY like him. but he's 17 and i'm 14. we had talked about waiting til i am 15 to go out or do something ya know? so our ages are closer...well...the other day i was hanging out with him. and we had the same conversation that we normally have on myspace...the "do you think we should wait?" thing. i told him it sounded like we were talking about sex and i laughed. but i was just kidding. we were just having fun and joking around with each other. then he got really serious and he told me he wanted to go out with me...but i said i couldn't. he asked if we could be friends with benefits...until june or so (which is when my birthday is) andthen start going out maybe. i was like whatever. then...all of a sudden....we just started making out. like...idk. i had never seen him in that way before but it all seemed right. it was a great day. but i don't want to be used. i kinda feel like he's just another guy. someone that wants just sex. but i trust him not to hurt me. i mean...we've been friends so long i can't even remember. i'm so confused tho. i never thought i would have a crush on him. EVERRR!! lol. i have so many feelings goig on and so many thoughts. geez. lol. idk. maybe everything will turn out for the best!!


<3 lindsey beth

hey everyone!
so homecoming was this past week!
it was SO much fun. everyday there was a theme and we did almost NO schoolwork!
which lets face it...is always good! 
we won the game against NB 55-14. and then the half-time show rocked!!
it was SO much fun and all.
after the game was the dance!
i went with a guy named Lucas. he is one of my friends!
we had fun and i realized that we are e.x.t.r.e.m.e.l.y. similar. lol
i like him a lot...but idk if he likes me.

this week we play pike county...i hope we do pretty good at the game and all.
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then saturday we have a band contest in A-town. (but it just feels like another week to me)
well i just wanted to update really quickly!

iloveyou!

hey everyone.

well today is mine and jason's one month. (: it might not seem like a long time to ya'll but for everything we've been through it seems like an awefully long time. i mean...we've been through friends telling us to break up, heartaches(?), to family issues, and a LOT of other stuff. i'm just so happy that we made it through it. i've never been happier then when i'm with him. i love jason more then anyone could EVER know. i just wish people would understand things about "us" better. they think stuff that isn't true. it upsets me but in the end i know it will be worth it.

 

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-linz

THE WAY


The way I love him is so sweet
I love to sit at his feet
I look up at him and all i see,
Is a guy I love in a sea,
A sea a love and wanting to be,
Everything to and for me.

The way I love him is awesome.
Before him I was lonesome.
I love him more then anything else,
This love is greater then anything i have felt.
I hope he feels the same way,
The way I feel this day.

The way I look at him is magical.
My eyes get big,
And they turn really blue.
I guess this is love,
Sent from above.

The way i'm thankfull everyday,
Sacres me in a way.
But deep down I know,
This is the guy I love and i can't let go.

 

 

by:: ME

 

 

 

 

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